Pee sticks again!

I felt no symptoms at all this month. I know all of the books, and even my beloved Karen Hilbert, told me that every pregnancy is different, and not to compare symptoms - but who can help it? It seems strange to me that the same physical cause can precipitate different symptoms in the same body.

So, the day I figured I was due for my period, October 17, I took a pee test and hopped in the shower. I was already planning ahead which day I would ovulate during our trip to Europe in November. (I vaguely thought telling our future child, "You were conceived in Budapest!" would be kind of cool.) Ryan was in the bathroom getting ready when I got out of the shower and glanced at the pee test.

"Um... do you see a line there?"
"YES!"

So, here we are again :-)

It is really strange to be pregnant again so soon, and yet not even be as far along as I had been. Starting over is strange. I feel like I've been pregnant now in total for so long, even though I am only 4.5 weeks right now!

Ryan and I decided not to tell anyone quite yet. I had a blood test taken Wed. morning, and will go back Tue. to ensure my numbers are increasing appropriately. After that, I will feel better about sharing with our inner circle. We agreed on who to tell first, who to wait to tell, and who we would like to be able to tell in person.

My parents came to visit last weekend, and it has been really hard not telling them about the miscarriage. I wanted to wait until I was pregnant again, so that I didn't have them worrying for however long it took. Turns out I was actually pregnant while they were here, but I didn't know it yet! :-) Now I have to decide whether to wait til Christmas to tell them, which could be really fun, or if I can hold out that long. I probably can't.

I feel much better about this pregnancy. I know it is far too early to get too ahead of myself, but I had this innate sense that things weren't right last time. I have no hesitant thoughts this time at all. My pee sticks have gotten darker every day. And, what the heck, I'll make my first prediction: I feel like it will be a boy! Ha!

Prayers and fingers crossed.