Crib training...

Yes, I have a whole Disney trip to post about, but I am in the midst of crib training, and I need to post to take my mind off the crying baby I left in her own bed for the first time.

I know that everyone tells me this is healthier for everyone, and I know Ade can't stay the baby in the bed forever, but this is really so awful.

We followed Ade's normal bedtime routine, and then sat in her room and nursed her instead of taking her to our room. She fell right asleep and I rocked her for about 15 more minutes. Then I tried to lay her down, but she woke up of course. I patted her back and talked softly to her and told her to be a big girl and go nunny. She started screaming her head off. I told her I loved her and left the room. We have been listening to her scream, then settle to fussing, then wind back up again for about 25 minutes.

We had planned to have Ryan go in after 5 or 10 min and tell her it is okay, but she keeps winding down and I certainly don't want to make it worse... it is tough to know what to do...

All of the time I resented being stuck in the bed with her, but it really is something I am going to miss very much. That was special time we had together. And, I really don't think I would have ever taken that time to relax by choice. If this is the only baby I have, I will be so sad to see this end.

When you are used to having your baby snuggled up with you, just listening on a monitor for her well-being is no comparison.

Wish us luck and Ade a peaceful sleep. I'll let you know how it goes. (30 minutes elapsed...)